things around here

A few photos from today:

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Sometimes yellow is just what you need to add some sunshine to your home.

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I’m so inspired by this spread from Holiday with Matthew Mead {I know it is a holiday publication, but I want my house to reflect this calm warmth all year long}.

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The boys and I made these decoupage easter eggs {tutorial found at Dear Lillie}.

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Sometimes the simplest things like tissue paper flowers in an old basket can make the loveliest centerpiece.

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A gorgeous hellebore from Nonna’s garden promises that spring is here.

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I am finally getting around to painting the walls in our bedroom {Bedford Gray by Martha Stewart}.  I’m not sure I’m in love yet …

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The april giveaway collection is just hanging out on the dining room table waiting to be won {you can enter here}.

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Lots and lots of legos … a new organization system is in the works. Not sure if it will stand the test of time, but its worth a shot.

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This bible study is changing my heart. And life.

Things around here are pretty. Flowers, pillows, happy children with plenty of toys. My life looks pretty. And for the most part, I can say that things are great.

But my heart is heavy … in a new sort of way. I say I’m in a funk, but I’m not sure that it accurately describes how I feel. My heart is being refined and while it hurts a little, it is a good hurt. 

I’ve been realizing the past few weeks my life is out of balance. I love doing the work that I do, am inspired by it, fulfilled, motivated and encouraged daily by you sweet ladies. But I also have four children whom I love. A husband who is fun to be around, friends who live literally next door. And yet, half the time I choose writing a blog post or designing a new print or emailing a reader over them. Maybe even more than half the time. 

I don’t confess this for any other reason than to let you know that I am not as put together as I appear. Or would like to be. Or would like you to think I am.  Just so we’re all on the same page. I struggle. I have bad mommy days. I go weeks without spending time with really great girl friends. My laundry piles up and there is a lot of dust on our unused piano.  My motives are often impure and most of the time I don’t even recognize it. 

We’re all in the same boat … trying to do the best we can, sometimes finding success, other times unable to escape the fact that we’re failing miserably. 

While in Houston, my best friend and I were talking about these things when this scripture came to mind:

1 If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didn’t love others, I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God’s secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing. 3 If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it;but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing.

1 corinthians 13: 1-3

I try so hard to be the best blogger or the best designer or decorator or project do-er {or fill-in-the-blank} and yet, if I am not loving those around me I am nothing.  How much of my time and energy is spent on doing and striving and forgetting about the simple {and loving} things like phoning my mom or sending a note to a struggling friend? I hate to admit the truth.

I don’t really want to be a clanging cymbal. They are sort of annoying.

And so, I am on this journey – a hard, painful, beautiful journey – of figuring out how to genuinely love. Not out of selfish gain, but out of sacrificial goodness.  The book I’m reading says that the mark of maturity is love. I sure hope I can get there soon.

Be encouraged today. And perhaps you can put an extra dose of love into your everyday occurrences – it truly is the most excellent way.

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